I’m Beautiful Like Me.

March did not leave like a lamb. April has lived up to it’s rainy reputation thus far. Erg. The storm last night was so bad it knocked out the cable (and phone and internets, too) for several hours. I’m so glad it’s back now. I don’t know how else to entertain either myself or the boy without one of these three things!

My glasses finally came in yesterday. I think they look pretty great, but it is taking some adjusting. I feel very weird, almost like motion-sickness. I’m amazed at how much better I see, though! I always thought my sight was decent (and it’s not bad - 20/30), but turns out I have astigmatisms in both eyes and the glasses really help sharpen everything. Hopefully they will reduce the amount of headaches I get, too.

The girl goes on Spring Break tomorrow. T already left to go to my mom’s for the duration to earn some cash helping out with all the extra boarding animals during the week. Joy will join her tonight or tomorrow morning. Husband and I will hopefully get some quality alone time! T’s birthday is tomorrow, too, so we are going to brainstorm for a gift and shop for it. She likely won’t get it until after she returns home to us, though. We are so mean.

The boy has been extra whiney and not eating solids well lately. Sure enough, he’s got a molar coming in. Poor thing. Poor me, too, having to deal with his incessant howling and squawking! He’s happiest at the boob, sleeping or in the bathtub. When the days were sunny enough to go outside, he’s happy there, too. Hopefully it will pass soon.

Aunt Ruby is here for a visit. That explains a lot, particularly the boy’s recently grouchiness when it comes to nursing. And my recent voracious appetite (particularly for chocolate) and frequent headaches. In any case, my cycles seem to be back to their good ole 28 days.

Met with Dr. M today. I brought T and the boy along. The nurses were all tickled pink to see him, disbelieving that he could walk or that he’ll be 1 year old in 4 short days. Even the doctor was all “No way!” So, he agreed with me that the lump I found was nothing serious. And he gave me something to help me sleep - thank goodness. I just hafta remember to call the other doc tomorrow and let them know that I’m not interested in the mammogram and/or ultrasound and also make them aware of the other meds the Dr. M prescribed me.

I’ve spent a good part of the day teaching myself how to crochet. What little I have seems kind of pathetic to me, but it’s a good start, too, I think. I’ve successfully learned the single crochet, double crochet and half double crochet. There are four or five additional stitches (of which I am aware) that I haven’t learned yet. It’s a slow process, learning from the net and a book. But I’m enjoying it.

T and the girl went to Oma’s house for the weekend. There’s no school tomorrow (professional day), so it will be a long weekend without them. I will see them again on Sunday at P’s house for Buddha’s birthday. Which reminds me, we still need to get his gift! We’ve decided to get him a toybox.

I’m really tired and feeling yucky again this evening. And the prospect of the impending winter storm does not make me feel any jollier. Blech, I’m ready for Spring! Don’t we set our clocks ahead this weekend, too? Well, whatever. I’m hoping to get some decent sleep tonight and waking in the morning feeling refreshed and rejuvenated.

Woke up feeling pretty icky again today. Did manage to get some chores done, though. Husband took mom’s Jeep for an oil-change and fill-up, ready for her arrival tonight. I got an email from her boyfriend that her first flight was delayed. Joy. Luckily, P was kind enough to come sit with the kids at 10pm when I went to get mom from the airport. Glad she’s back. The girl accompanied her home for the weekend. I’m unsure if it is to visit with Oma or with Oscar (Oma’s dachshund).

We finally got our income tax return today. I want to throw practicality to the wind and buy us all one-way tickets to Maratea, Italy.

Alas, I will not.

We are going to pay down our debt. Husband’s truck is paid off, at long last! It was painful to write that check, but also an immense relief. We have about $2000 more that we will be spending on paying off old debts on our credit report. The long-term goal is to get our first house. I am eager and have started looking already, but in truth, we will likely wait until we have a couple thousand saved to put down. That could easily be two or three years from now.

One of the best things about being married to Husband is how similarly we think and behave with regards to money. We are able to communicate so well about the way we spend and have similar long-term goals. From time to time, one of us gets a little crazy and the other balances the scales by bringing a reality check to the table. It’s always honest.

The dream from my end is a home that is big enough to accomadate our family size and for just a little bit of extra room to stretch out. Husband would prefer some land and while I am not opposed to that, I would prefer not to live out in the middle of nowhere. The absolute most important things to me are a large kitchen and at least one fireplace. Husband wants a basement and/or a garage. I would prefer a basement first, considering there is enough land to later build a garage if we so choose. Storage space is always good. Plenty of electrical outlets. Two bathrooms, even if one of them is only a half-bath.

Tomorrow will be a bit hectic in the evening. Mom is flying back in from Deutschland and I have to pack up the chirrens and pick her up from the airport. I still need to get her Jeep an oil change and fill the gas tank. It’s very likely that she’ll be half-starved when she arrives, so we may stop for a bite to eat. So, my plan is to turn in early tonight. Hopefully, I’ll stick to it!

Yesterday, I awoke feeling only marginally better, but as the day continued, I began feeling pretty good. I was still pretty askeered of Husband going to work, leaving me here to deal with two less-than-100% kids when I’m still feeling less-than-100% myself! However, it turned out to be a pretty okay evening (thank goodness!). Even still, I was pretty useless. I did make Husband some lunch to take to work. Major accomplishment

Feeling markedly better today. I managed to start a couple of loads of laundry and have been thinking all morning about getting to the massive pile of dishes that have accumulated in the sink whilst we have all been sick. I’m avoiding, but I know I’ll get around to it eventually today. I’m also procrastinating making any decisions for dinner. My appetite is still not up to par. Even still, I wanted a Hot Brown so bad the other evening. Husband and I combined our efforts and made it for the first time. It was simply delish!

On Wednesday, Husband went to work as usual. It was nightmarish for me. Buddha was starting to get sick, too and was fussy and fevered. The girl cried that her head hurt, but refused an meds. At 1am, I finally got the boy to sleep in our bed. The girl awoke howling about her headache and running a fever, too. Oh, it was quite miserable. I left Husband a note that he was to take the next few days off to help take care of me and the kids.

Thursday, I spent most of the day lying on the couch in complete misery. We kept Joy home from school, but she claimed to have been miraculously healed overnight. Turned out to be no major loss, as school was released at 11:30am due to incoming inclement weather. She was headachey and stuffy throughout most of the day, with poor appetite. The boy was whiney and wanted to be held and nursed a lot. Also had no appetite.

Today was only slightly better in terms of my own health. I still woke up feeling like death warmed over, but better than the past two days. School was on a delay, so Husband got the girl off to the bus around 10:30am. Again, I hung out on the couch most of the day watching movies, however, the boy was much more cranky and preferred screaming at me to cuddling with me. Husband was much less patient with me today and enjoyed irritating the snot out of me.

Ugh, I just want to feel better. I hate feeling so miserable.

I have been totally worthless today. I woke up early this morning. Husband and I had planned to get our taxes done at H&R Block first thing this morning. I took a shower and he made breakfast and took a shower, too. Afterwards, it was nearing Buddha’s naptime, and Husband was feeling queasy from breakfast. So we decided to just all lie down for a nap together. A couple of hours later, I vaguely recollect being pretty nasty to Husband when he tried waking me up. Poor guy. An hour later, I finally woke up, too. I felt terrible. Husband went to file taxes without me. I cried, my body ached so much. When he came home at around 4:30pm, I went straight to sleep and slept until almost 11pm. I’m certain I only woke because my body ached so badly and I was a bit hungry. Husband made me some toast, which I gobbled down. I’ll prolly return to bed very soon. Hopefully, I will feel better tomorrow.